A Mother’s Thanks
Yet even so, there are still so many things to be thankful for. Our resilience. Our faith. Our friends and family. And still sometimes the darkness can seem overwhelming. Oh my, there is so much. Yet I am hopeful that we are being taught on this path of evolution… to come together in the face of so much adversity. As George Harrison sang “with every mistake, we must surely be learning."
So much to write on this. But later. This year my focus is elsewhere. When something life-threatening happens to someone we love, everything else falls silently into the background, and we realize (I sure did) how precious the life is that we share together.
Writing this, I write as a mother, to share a little about the event that drowned the world around me out and shook me to my core.
Last November, our daughter Lulu was getting sick. It was unexplained, and after several urgent care visits, we ended up in the emergency room. I will never forget the horrible, helpless feeling of my heart sinking when the ER doctor came in the room and said “Mom, can I speak to you outside?”
Our then 6-year old daughter had a condition that required us to helicopter her to Los Angeles, where she could get the care our smaller hospital couldn’t provide. John flew with her and I drove down to the LA Children’s Hospital nearly hysterical - my friend Jen on the phone with me, trying to keep me focused all the way down. John and Lulu were met by the medical team on the helipad and Lulu was brought directly into the ICU.
After many tests and 5 days and nights at the hospital Lulu seemed strong enough to go home. A month later Lulu was in surgery. Hour after hour, alongside my husband and Lulu’s Grandmother, Mimi, I deeply meditated on her coming through, sending her light, asking God to guide her surgeon’s hands, praying for her and not knowing what the outcome would be (I can barely write these words without tears). Moms (and Dads) who have been through something like this, I know you understand. I know most everyone can.
This little girl…. She made it through, and we made it through, bolstered by the prayers and love of our community, forever altered by what happened.
So here we are, transformed by heartache, uncertainty, pain, trauma and the big love. Today, if we can stay present to each other and to this gift of life, each sunrise, each mess, each hug, each baking session, each laugh, each sunset is one more that we have together, together… John, Lulu and I are still here, together.
In my little family, we hug a little harder these days. Within these hugs lies the energy and love of everyone who helped Lulu get better, and our friends and family, and our larger community who helped us cope along the way. I am humbled and grateful to realize the gifts you have given us.
Wishing you all the great joys of finding and being in the present moment, and a deeply Joyful Thanksgiving together with those we love,
A Thankful Poem from Patti
Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you
Thank you for noticing,
Thank you for seeing our metaphoric light signal &
Blinking back brightly –
Thank you for showing your hearts,
for sharing your joys and celebrations,
Thank you for telling us your stories, For taking risks
For never ceasing to inspire us
For holding space for wonder,
for making room for the poignant & particular,
For validating the inexplicable pull certain words have
symbols and sentiments as brave beacons
avenues towards something brighter and truer than
one might normally imagine
For celebrating the journey in many different forms
For understanding what it is we are trying to share with the world
And for making it more understandable by sharing yourselves
For tiny moments of brilliant sparkles
cherished memories, victories of varying scale
stories with heart, with cheers and tears (more times than we can count)
For keeping Faith + Friendship feisty displays of
all the other words that aren’t yet ready
For trying out, for coming back, for being braver
For giving us more reasons to make more reasons
For you, for you, for you
(we are thankful)
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- November 23, 2017
Thanksgiving blessings to your family! I am at a different stage in life but your post resonated with me. Hugging my grandsons and thankful for these moments also.