AN UNFINISHED SONG
It has been one year since I finished my treatment for breast cancer, and there isn’t a day that goes by that isn’t filled with insights and lessons, my “gifts” from this life-changing journey.
I never really considered myself a writer per se, but things do come to me, and I just try to let them through. And I LOVE music (who doesn’t really?). Recently, I was on a flight and was listening to Joni Mitchell’s song “Free man in Paris,” which she wrote about her friend David Geffen, the music agent / promoter who that felt trapped by his career and obligations. Great song. After listening, then some quiet, I heard music, and then started writing my own song… about the initial confusion, denial, and fearfulness I was mired in when I got my diagnosis… and the eventual path of light that led me through the dark forces of disease.
Thought I’d share the lyrics… pardon if they read a bit odd, as they have never been sung / edited. Maybe someday one of my musician friends will put some music to it and help me finish it.
Bird of Heaven
Somewhere up there in the unsure breeze
Nowhere to go, only to believe
Someday I’ll be free
It’s not just myself I want to deceive
In the light, the pink moonlight
There is no bargain, there is no plea
If it weren’t for my calling here
I’d be living with the free
Am I a bird of heaven
On the wire, saying no way
Pulled in the night by some unseen lead
Must be I am meant to bleed
On the wire, feeling my way
When the call came, I answered it with tears
Held back, then to take a dive
Through waves of confusion and deep, deep fears
Here I am, I’m still alive,
(but not as certain of the years)
Then I sat myself back and I looked at the light
Saw it shining on, around, without me
I rose, I arose with a fight alright,
From the demon hour, from the night
And this bird of heaven
On the wire, showed me the way
The knowing of how we can all be freed
I followed along with little need
On the wire, feeling my way
To meet the shadows of your curse
The birds of the night took wing
It is ours, not yours, this universe
And I am here to sing
Yes, I am. The bird of heaven
On the wire, feeling the way
Pulled from the night by nature’s creed
I float along with little need
On the wire, knowing my way
The birds and us children of the universe
We are here to sing
Join us to help create a world where our sisters and mothers, our daughters and friends are not at risk. We have a long way to go. We should be able to make it with each other’s help, and great organizations like the NBCF.
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- October 27, 2017
I too am a survivor. Breast cancer then leukemia/bone marrow transplant a year later. That was 4 1/2 years ago. The metamorphosis that I’ve gone through is simply astounding! I have an awesome story to tell but just don’t know whete to begin. Seems MY story started along time before I did. Whete to begin…..